Today was your wedding, B & S. And while I am happy for you both for finding happiness, I am not sorry for going to the wedding and sharing in festivities. I am, however, sorry for not being mature enough to decline your invitation in writing or via telephone. Here is my lame list of reasons for not going:
1) I wouldn't have been very festive. There's not many times when I am that festive these days. No, I lied. I am never that festive anymore.
2) I am selfish. While I am happy that you both are happy, I am also still very angry at the situation.
3) Why can't gay people get married? Simply for this reason, weddings infuriate me.
4) I am selfish and didn't want to go.
5) When the two of you started dating, I lost my friend. B and I have not spoken longer than a five minute "hello" since the day you two started seeing one another.
6) S, we were never friends. We were acquaintances who hung out occasionally in groups of other people. I tried to like you. I went to your house, I met your family. But in the end, I think I just envied you too much to like you. I don't hate you, but I hate that you have the life that I never had as a child and never will have as an adult.
7) Again, I am a selfish bitch.
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